no wonder you got so attached
to the cold wonders
of a moonless night
when all you knew
was the absence of love
but never it’s warming glow

all the dreams you were gifted with
were nightmares
so you ran from presents
people once chose to leave
at your door steps
before they chose to never leave anything with you at all

now the path to your home
has disappeared
under thorny roots of lies
and weeds poison thoughts planted
the moment you pulled in air
and didn’t like the taste of it

you carved a mantra into your skin
you say it over and over
until it calms the shaking
until the wish is fulfilled
“don’t breathe in
don’t breathe in.”